i’m with you ;; December 24, 2008

‘Cause nothing’s going right
And everything’s a mess
And no one likes to be alone….

i’m so sick ;; December 19, 2008

I am damn sick and tired of people taking advantage of me — using me as an outlet for their f**king petty problems and then skipping on their merry f-ing way when I try to add a little bit to the conversation.

 

I can’t take this anymore. I want out of here… NOW. I can’t stand the people in my life… I can’t handle being abused, ignored, and pushed aside any longer…

I just want to get on a plane with a one-way ticket to the remotest island culture of the world. I hate the people at my school, I hate all their immaturity and pathetic need to constantly fit in… And I hate the incessant competition to be the center of attention that all the idiotic moronic pea-brains I deal with each and every day consist of having.

 

Make… it… STOP!!!!!!

 

I am so glad that our break starts after tomorrow and then we’ll be on vacation, on the beach where I can be ALONE!!!!

 

Dear sweet merciful mother, that cannot come soon enough!

mercy ;; December 13, 2008

Angel of Mercy
How did you find me?
How did you pick me up again?
Angel of Mercy
How did you move me?
Why am I on my feet again?
And I see you
I feel you…

Mercy // OneRepublic

 

Lovely tune, very pretty… 

So, it’s about 1 o’clock in the afternoon, and I just finished eating lunch. Pizza Bianca from Cessna’s — leftover, but still good. Mmm. Before that, my dad and I had been out running some errands for my mom.We went to Home Depot, BJ’s, blah blah blah… The fun part was at Burger King and Borders. I wanted to get a croissan’wich for breakfast, seeing as I had just gotten up when I was forced to do evil bidding, but of course by the time we got there it was lunchtime and they were no longer serving it. My face must’ve been something else, ’cause I was pissed lol.

Still, the chicken fries and regular fries, with lemonade, were good. My dad just got a chocolate shake. It was funny — even though we had a copy of the local paper at home, my dad still wasted fifty cents on another one to read while there. Our little secret ^_~ Haha. He read me the story some professor guy had written up: he said there were four types of shoppers — neurotic, compulsive, psychotic, and normal. It was laughable, really. Normally I like psychological stuff, and really buy into it, but that was just a load of major B.S., let me tell you now.

Then at Borders, my dad bought a half-dozen of the same stupid chipmunk christmas card because he was sick of searching for a pack of blank ones. It was so retarded — cost him $24 — but he still did it anyway. And I got a multi-colored pencil case, which is both purty and practical, I say — but he claimed my purchase was just as useless as his. Either way… we still bought the items!

I’ve devoted myself to a new quest: finding a Johnny Depp calender for 2009!! I looked on amazon, and it’s really expensive… I’d like to find a cheap one that I can still look at the date from and drool at hopelessly <3 I’m so far beyond hopeless, I swear it — all my friends know it too, boy.

I need to walk the dogs here soon… I need exercise anyway, hah. And I have to wrap my gifts, along with writing my spanish oral presentation. Ah, well… I’ll get it done eventually. Right now I think I’ll put my jeans back on, and then grab my iPod and go walking, before I get too lazy and skip it, therefore cheating myself out of $14 of allowance — not cool, man. I just wanted to check in real quick… Type a few things to get settled in again, and then head out. Probably will write again tonight after/before watching a movie and/or eating dinner… Three posts in one day? New record for me… Normally I go weeks without posting…!

Nos vemos! 

 

crazy people ;; December 13, 2008

Only crazy people
Fall in love with me
They come from all over
To be with me
Bank robbers and killers
Drunks and drug dealers
Only crazy people 
Fall in love with me…

Crazy People // The Wreckers

I love this song, for some strange reason. It’s really witty, and funny… At the end of it, both Jess and Michelle just burst out laughing, it’s adorable. I can picture Liz and I doing something like that, definitely… <3 Now it’s “You Don’t Know Me” by Michael Buble. 

Speaking of which, we had a really good time working on our project, actually. We smeared paste on each other and jammed to my iPod, which was amusing. We finished most of it, yay! The rest of it Liz will just finish on her own real quick, because we can’t get together this weekend again, what with business and all… As for me, I can stay up as late as I want tonight, and get up at noon, for all that I care.

Amen to that, brotha.

Anywho… I am now just kind of sitting here… Feeling a bit tired and a lot in pain — my ear and nose hurt… pimple and scab… ack! I hate dry, cracked skin in the wintertime… Only downside of the beautiful coldness and snow. Love that christmas is coming… and our vacation to Kiawah! The beach is incredible… I can’t wait to hear those crashing waves… Feel the tide lick at my toes… See the gorgeous pastel sunrise in the early morning… Smell the sea-salt… I am so ready for this, man! After my family gatherings, food, and presents, of course… Fun and inevitable, haha.

Coming up this weekend, I have to wrap my gifts for other people and stick them under the tree… And go over to my grandma’s after church to make gnocci’s for International Club dinner on Tuesday night… Which is the same night as our choir rehearsal! Luckily, there is time for both… I really don’t want to wear the same dress to our x-mas concert as I did to the fall one, tacky and unfestive… Blek. But my mom insists on being cheap… Love her to death, that is true, but ugh! Ah, well. C’est la vie, no?

Moving forward… I’m reading this book that I really enjoy… It’s called March by Geraldine Brooks, and it details the adventures and past of the girls in Louisa May Alcott’s Little Women’s father, Mr. March. It sounds cheesy, but as a result of vivid and sensory writing, the story practically leaps off the page… I can’t wait to curl up with that novel later tonight, before I surrender to sleep ^-^

Oh yes, and I forgot! I have to write my proyecto oral for spanish class… to be presented on Monday. It is supposed to detail ourselves descriptively and someone in our family… If you’re a male, you have to describe a female in your family, and vice versa. So, obviously, I have to describe a male… And I have no uncles or male cousins (except for Chris, who I know little to nothing about, other than that he still lives with his mom at nearly forty years of age) and no brothers… That leaves my dad! So I guess I’ll be getting up and talking about my dad and I. Interesting… Should be pretty easy. I could write it now, but there’s a chance I might fall asleep and drool all over it, and that would suck majorly… I’ll wait until tomorrow ; )

Gosh, my limbs hurt… Probably because of… Well, I don’t really know. It just is painful! But nothing I’m not used to, really.

So, I’d like to post something on here that I wrote recently, but I fear it might be stolen. I think I’ll probably delete the other post on here of my writing stories, seeing as someone could easily take it without crediting… And boy, how pissed would I be? MONUMENTALLY. There, it’s gone… Hopefully it’s not too late. Eh, it wasn’t anything really all that special anyway, though I do not want someone stealing it from me!!

What now, then? I’m not all too sure. My room is an absolute pig-sty… Perhaps I’ll clean it tomorrow while I’m overwhelmed with doing nothing? Highly doubt it. I really want a holiday cookie right now… Liz forgot to give me the ones we were going to eat, hah… Nerrrrg. -annoyance- Well, I would like to keep talking, but… I don’t really know what else to say.

Oh yeah! So I kind of agreed to go to the Winter Formal with Liz… And the theme is Hooville. Oy to the vey! Help me, please… Good thing it’s not till January, I could still possibly weasel my way out… Mowhahaha!

Well, I’m off to read and snuggle with my numerous colorful blankies… And to dream about my dream guy, Jasper… Everyone wants Edward, but I say, “Dude, give me Jasper, he’s sensitive, mysterious, and sexy!” Ohhhh, yes. -sigh of delight-

Peace out y’all… 

f.u.s.s. ;; December 12, 2008

I thought I knew who you were
I see now you were a lesson to learn
And all I am to you now is a bridge that’s been burned
Now I was the first to believe
I made you part of my musical dream
And your thanks to me, came without an apology, yeah…

Christina Aguilera // F.U.S.S. 

I don’t really know why I’m listening to this song… It’s depressing and very short, but I like it. Haha. So I wrote a post yesterday, called “let love in” — a song by the goo goo dolls — but I don’t think it posted right… Hopefully this one will, because I worked hard on the one yesterday, and it pissed me off! xD

Ah, well. Now I’m just sitting here at home, on the leather couch in the family room ,watching some reality TV show about Britney Spears on MTV… it’s on mute, and I’m playing my iTunes — Hero/Heroine by Boys Like Girls. Woohoo… It’s a good song, not the best, but still nice. The show is odd… I wonder it B’s faking it all for the camera or actually willing to broadcast herself sobbing pathetically all across the united states. Eh, whatever… Just something to look at, no sound involved.

Awww, her baby is cute though <3

Young Love by Gavin DeGraw just came on… cute and sweet, with pretty guitar acoustics in the background. Tonight I have to go over to Liz’s house and we’ll do our science project… Oh, boy. She’s a control freak at times, so I’ll have to go prepared with my suit and armor of … I dunno, whatever will make me able to voice my opinions without facing her wrath, lol. Other than that, I’m bored… I don’t really want to go to her place, or anywhere for that matter… But we have to have it done for Tuesday of next week. Sigh.

I kind of want to go see a movie… but obviously that’s not an option. I Kissed A Girl by Katy Perry — haha — is now playing. Weird song, good voice and music. Now I’m just waiting for my mom to get home from work so she can drive me to Liz’s… Guess I should change out of my pajamas, huh? Eh… don’t want to! So comfy…

So, hopefully I’ll be able to get this published on my blog… Wow, there’s a lot of commercials in this show. I want — Kindly Unspoken by Kate Voegele — to go to sleep… My body is tired. It’s snow outside! Purtyyy. Blek, I hate when people excessively emphasize their words, like so: “punkkk.” it looks retarded — and it’s so preppy. not be stereotypical or anything, because I hate that, but it’s still true. Looks so dumb and intentional.

I so want to be a Valley Girl for Halloween next year! “Like, that would be totally rad! Oh my God, like, we should get pom-poms and everything!” It would be so amazingly funny <3 Nerdy but hilarious, I tell you! Iris by the goo goo dolls. Um, so… what now… I think Verena and I are going to start making a video show — how fun would that be?! Amazing. We could get a fanbase and everything! At first, it’ll just be fun… but eventually we’ll kick iCarly’s ass!! Yeah, baby!!

So… I guess I’ll say good-bye now… And possibly post again later tonight or tomorrow! Wish me luck!

Vaarwel… (Dutch for good-bye)